I’ve always wanted to be a writer. More accurately, I’ve always wanted writing to be the underpinning through which my inner voice worked tirelessly to make sense of our shared reality. I hold great reverence for those whom language is the chosen weapon. I’m attracted to the misfits and outlaws of our society. The drunks and addicts. The aloof. The mystics. Those who use charisma and intrigue as currency. The men and women who have not simply rejected the chains of conformity but have instead chosen to burn the bridges connecting them from the rest with a zeal and vigor akin to religious fervor. These folks are the true hero’s of the human narrative. They are not good capitalists. They are not good puritans or standard bearers of Victorian ethics. They are people for whom the shared experience, and honesty, and personal freedom are virtues. Anything less is treasonous – an affront to the muse of collective consciousness.
It has taken me a lifetime to get a sense of what all this means. What the root of this fascination means and what I’m supposed to do with that information. It’s not just the writers, but the comedians and podcasters too. All of these people are teaching me that there is more to life than what we have been lead to believe is possible. That this life that I’m living is mine to control.
I have spent a lifetime avoiding responsibility. I have taken the easy route. I have avoided experience. I have taken refuge in comfort and the path of least resistance. I have been living a life that hasn’t yielded psychological, or physical, or philosophical meaning. I have not held up my end of the bargain. For too long I have sat on the sidelines and idolized those who do the work, often for the wrong reasons. It’s not the demons that make the artist appealing. Its their ability to be honest with who they are and to use that honesty as a club to beat their way through a culture and society designed to destroy them.
This project is my attempt to break free. It is here where I intended to bring my demons to light and expose their chicanery. In this space I will work diligently to explore ideas and concepts with intellectual curiosity and honesty. This is my first real attempt to add to the narrative of human experience and grow and find meaning. I’ve always avoided sharing my thoughts and opinions and feelings assuming that it was too narcissistic to do so; That I couldn’t possible ask or expect folks to lend me their time to explore and engage in the metaphysical and practical alike. What I have come to realize is that this lack of openness was based in fear. What my idols have been patiently telling me, and what I’m just now beginning to see is that fear should not and cannot be an impassible obstacle. Instead fear and discomfort are tools to become the best version of the self.
My intent is that this space serves as a springboard for which I can learn to cultivate the inner voice and learn to live in a way that is more align with my values and the spirit of my mentors. It is about growth and shedding preconceived notions. It is about testing convictions and exploring big ideas and learning from peers and fellow travelers. I am excited to start working.
I thank you for your time, and happy Thanksgiving.